I know I’ve probably said this before, but it’s astonishing how with You failure and even death are never the end. There is always something more beyond our darkest days that You long to reveal to us. So thank You for that hope and for Your miraculous life-giving power.
Much of life is a long, difficult, steep and winding slog, to be honest. Or that’s how it seems at the moment – really, there’s very little success, and it’s a case of one hesitant step forward and two devastating steps back. All of the time. Thank You then for your presence with me during all the difficult times, even when I can’t sense or see you, and perhaps especially then. And thank You for the promise that one day You will bring all of us out of our difficult journeys and into a wide and spacious place where we will truly be with You. Thank You.
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Tagged difficult times, failure, future hope, God's presence, life, problems
I’m feeling delicate enough as it is but today everywhere I turn, I see friends and strangers succeeding beyond every measure of success in their dreams, whereas I’m struggling away as always to no apparent avail and with very little good news coming my way. Sorry, and I know it means I’m a Very Bad Christian (no surprises there for You then …) and an appalling friend, but actually, I just want to punch them to stop them talking about it all the time, and be left alone with my own failures.
And whilst I’m consumed with envy, I still have to go on smiling and offering supposedly heartfelt congratulations, oh dear me. Because honestly sometimes lying is the only option. This far on in my life and career, I don’t actually expect any success (though still I dream, ah well …), but could You at least be kind enough to ensure that I only have to listen to Tales of Other People’s Glory no more than once a month, rather than three times a ruddy day. Thank You.
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Tagged Bad Christians, dreams, envy, failure, friends, lies, success